Many things happen out of your control, no? Some things are bad, some things are good. When that thing is bad, you try your hardest to make sure that certain thing never happens. You try to fix the un-fixable, do the impossible. I, for one, have no choice. I literally have no control. No matter how hard I pray, how hard I wish, how hard I ask God to please don't take him away from me, the inevitable is bound to happen.
So, as you all know, I have a boyfriend. His name is Sebastian and he's one year younger than me. He's the love of my life and hopefully we get married, have kids, and grow old together. He isn't the ideal boyfriend, but he's my ideal boyfriend. He makes me who I am. He makes me so happy. He's changed me for the good. I love with him all my heart and I really wanna be with him for the rest of my life. We met during my sophomore year and his freshman year in our debate class. And even though we virtually have nothing alike, we still love each other for who we are. And we've been together for nearly a year and three months. We've had our arguments, our fights, our disputes, our bad days. But our love for each other overwhelms any argument, fight, dispute, or bad day we've ever had. And yeah, I must sound cheesy and corny right now, but it's really the truth. And yeah, I'm only 16, but I've fallen in love. And this isn't a crush, or a puppy love, this is a real and genuine love. I love him with all my heart.
But what's a relationship without any hardships?
I found out yesterday that my boyfriend is moving to Puerto Rico. And not just moving as in "I'll be back in a couple of months," but moving as in "I don't know if I'll ever come back." He plans and hopes and wishes he'll come back after high school. He wants to go to college here, in Florida, but that only depends on if his mom can get a decent job or not.
The whole reason they're moving to PR is because his mom wasn't able to find a job here. The mortgage on their house is starting to pile up and they can't really afford it. Mind you, this is a single mom taking care of two children, one of them is in college. So yeah, she's gonna make the decision and go back home where she has family support and a cheaper lifestyle. I'm not mad at her or at my boyfriend; hell, my parents would've done the same if we were in the same situation. You gotta do what you gotta do, right?
But him moving is just such a huge change. I already don't see him as often as I would like due to the fact that we go to different schools, but being in different countries is just... I can't imagine what we're going to go through for the next how ever many years, but all I know is that we're gonna get through it: together. We're the real deal. We're really in love. We're really going to stay together forever. And even though I never wanted to be in a long-distance relationship, I'd be in any kind of relationship for him. I love him that much.
I can't let go. I won't let go.
We've even promised each other to start this cute-cheesy thing when he moves. We're gonna use Livejournal to blog about our day. We're gonna write about our day and take pictures to show each other what our day was like. I'm really excited to start this. He says it won't get interesting after a few weeks, but I think it'll always be interesting. I want to know what PR is like for him and how it's treating him.
He says he's gonna be in a private school where they speak English since he isn't fluent in Spanish while his sister is gonna be a in a really good college. So I guess that's really good for him and his sister. He says when he gets back, he'll be better at basketball because they're getting a hoop the minute they land. And he says he's gonna workout and do more cardio 'cuz he wants to come back more fit. I told him he's perfect the way he is, but he refuses to believe me.
So yeah, things happen in life. Some things you can control, others you can't. And when the things you can't control work up against you, well, you just gotta live with it. You gotta deal with it. You gotta figure out a way to make it a good thing instead of a bad. Yeah, my boyfriend and I are going to be separated for who knows how long, but we'll get through it. We're a team, we're a couple, we're best friends; forever we'll be this way and forever we'll love each other no matter what.
After all, Distance means Nothing when Someone means Everything <3